| the purpose driven life..my life. |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|01:28 pm] |
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MY LIFE..the things i'm going through seem unimaginable they seem as if i'm waking up from a bad dream..and knowing this bad dream 'right now' will never end..having to put my face in my pillow so no one can hear me scream, or going into my closet crying my little brown eyes out..like i have nothing more to live for.MY LIFE hurts. I could say about a year ago i had everything good going for me...my career,and my personal life could not be more in the right place as it would seem. Then out of no where i feel as if i'm slowly breaking inside...my will to love and to be happy about life seems as if it's gone.vanished into thin air. Why?..i don't know..i can't quite seem to figure that out myself. i 'Do' know everything happens for a reason, and i 'Do' know God has a bigger and better plan for me in 'My' future. i guess i just never thought i could hurt so much.be in so much pain at an early stage, or period in MY LIFE. what can i do?..nothing. the fact remains i'm still my mothers child and whatever i would want to do to make MY LIFE happier is out of my reach. so i'm faced with 'My' reality..to right now live MY LIFE..an un-happy life that is until i can grasp for air, stay up late,talk on the phone to whomever i please,smoke out with cris and the bean,be with my soulmate..the man of dreams...THAT would make me happy. just thinking about it makes my spirit feel up-lifted.(slightly)...So this is MY LIFE...for right now.;)
-God has a purpose behind every problem.
2corinthians 4:17,1:9
-We learn things about god in suffering that we can't learn any other way. psalm 34:18 |
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